I hate you, Lupron.

It must be something about Lupron that makes me blog...

I have had a headache since Saturday.  Today is Thursday.  Sunday, Monday, and Tuesday were complete hell.  The headache gradually got worse, peaking overnight Monday and all day Tuesday. Monday night and Tuesday I was extremely nauseous from the pain. Nothing worked.  I'm not supposed to take Advil, but I called the dr. Tuesday morning and was given the okay for this week only.  By Wednesday I was alternating advil and tylenol about every 4 hours, which at least kept it at a manageable pain level.  When I called the dr. the nurse says, "are you headache prone?"  Ha!  Then, "well, Lupron is known to cause headaches."  (Yes, I knew that already).   I often have headaches, but I can usually manage them and they go away with a little tylenol.  But this has been just insane.  It's quite difficult to stay sane and be productive when you've had a headache this long.  This week was supposed to be "get all my school sh*@ done so I can relax while stimming" week. So much for that plan. 

Lesson Learned

Even when you are having a good IF day and feeling positive and hopeful, do not, I repeat DO NOT watch the baby shows on TLC.  What began as a "maybe I'll watch Make Room for Multiples" turned into several episodes, while I became more and more reminded of how much we desperately want a family.  I want my life to revolve around a child (or two or three, I'd be thrilled with multiples), I want to do nothing but change diapers, remember feedings, barely sleep or keep up with the laundry or dishes.  Which is slightly crazy, I realize.  But IF is so unfair.  The wait just drags on and on. 

As for our IVF cycle, last night was the last BCP (yay!).  Now we wait for good ole' AF to show up, and I have an ultrasound scheduled for the 28th.  Stims are planned for May 2, which I hope will come quickly (and bring with it some days above 55 degree, please).  Lupron has not been too bad.  I do have a dull, just slightly annoying headache for most of the day, and I've felt a little dizzy, but other wise so far so good. 

Day 4 on Lupron

The last seven days have been interesting, to say the least.  Last week this time, I was sure the whole IVF plan was going to be canceled.  Insurance had denied the medications, and I was told to just wait while the dr. faxed a letter explaining the medical necessity of IVF at this point.  Not only did it take a letter, but then a conference call.  Thankfully, the insurance pre-certification company approved us!  That's a lot of emotions to have in 48 hours, though.

Today is day 4 of the Lupron shots.  The first one was painful, but only because I didn't let the alcohol dry before jabbing myself with the needle.  I guess I was just too excited, lol.  Last night's shot was completely painless (yay!), with just a little bit of itching at the injection site.  Tonight is the last night of BCPs! This first week is already going quickly!  I'm feeling excited and hopeful!

Changing the focus

Since my first attempt at a blog didn't work out, I've changed the focus.  Unfortunately, my neighbor passed away late last summer at 87, leaving not much to blog about. 

From this point forward, this blog will chronicle our struggles to start a family and serve as an outlet for my roller coaster of emotions.